If you can't hold on, hold on.

Baah.
Life is crazy.
Between school, work, hospital, trying to have a life and other complications.
I just want one full day of rest, where I don't have to think of anything. Just sleep- no social drama, no school work, no work drama, where everything is just the way I want and need it to be.

I'm surviving through the music of King Charles
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You will love him and you will thank me for showing you him. I'm actually really excited because in November I get to see him open for Mumford and Sons, who I don't know if you've heard of them but they superb. I can't even begin to say how into their music I am. It's just so wonderful. Please please check them out as well.

Anyways I've got to go study wheat and everything about it. Wish me luck!

Sixteen Secrets.

Good Weekend. Better Friends.

Friday started out a wreck. My Dad was on the fritz and the hospital wasn't sure what to do with him and I wasn't handling it the best. After having a great talk with the even greater Stephanie I cooled down quite a bit. I hopped on the bus and made my way to go see my old man and made it through the visit without crying, woo!

While I was at the hospital I couldn't stop thinking about a certain number and a certain tattoo. I also needed some adrenalin. After texting Andy I wound up at a tattoo shop. Let me just say he did try and stop me and did try and give me other ideas to try and help me through whatever the hell my mind was doing. But I was stubborn and ignored them all and by the end of the night I had the roman numeral 16 tattooed on my wrist!

It's perfect. It's just what I wanted and exactly what I needed. I left Andy downtown at his new apartment, which is very homey and quite cozy, and made my way back to Kanata- This is where the real adventure begins.

Actually the depends how you define adventure, this adventure mainly took place in Chris' car, with Heather and few small appearances by Andrew, Ariel and Amanda.

The first place we ended up was The Works. All I had eaten so far that day was a bagel with cream cheese, I needed a little substance if I was going to make it through the rest of the night. There we got a call, Andrew had gotten kicked out of the Carp fair for smoking weed, hah.

Off we went to drive half an hour to Carp to pick up Andrew and Ariel. Silly kids. I never got caught underage. Mind you I never did anything overly outrageous either.

Next was Amanda. We drove to Meadowlands and picked up her semi-drunken self. It was a fun ride, with fun conversations.

So I guess it really wasn't that adventurous, but it was still a good time. Back to school tomorrow, woo!

1. He still doesn't know how I feel.
2. Pokemon is taking over my life.
3. I wish I gave/received more hugs.
4. I need out of my house, asap.
5. I don't really miss painting.
6. My room is a disgusting mess right now.
7. I'm still not exactly sure I'm doing what's right for me.
8. I forgot how much I dislike being a cashier.
9. Family dinners are extremely rare at my house.
10.I find my music taste embarrassing sometimes.
11.My feet have really dry skin on them right now, I should probably fix that.
12.Walking is the my least favourite form of transportation.
13.I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE FALL/WINTER
14.I think I'll have a good sleep tonight.
15.I love you.
16.Don't break me.

Face meet the toilet bowl.

Yesterday was not a good day. Let's just say my face became best friends with the toilet bowl. It started around 3 am. Why does it always seem to start in the middle of the night when you have the flu? After some ginger ale which I sipped super slowly my stomach was able to hold things down.

So now I'm taking the extra day off school just to make sure everything is okay and I desperately need to catch up on sleep. This also means I can't go in to see my Dad for another few days just to make sure I have no virus or anything left in me.

This will be the first baking class I miss. I wanted to not miss any because if you miss more than 7 then you are kicked out of the program, so I need to be on the top of my game. I better not get sick anymore.

Wow. It's been a while, let me reintroduce myself.

Oh Hey.

So I've been missing for quite sometime now. Weird.
Well I'm still Jenna and I still have problems. But now I go to school and actually enjoy it. And guess what? I'm going to school to become a pastry chef.

I spent three wonderful months on lake manitou with some amazing people. I still work at a grocery store, only I'm a supervisor there now. I still love metric and have a huge girl crush on Zooey Deschanel.

My old man is pretty sick right now. I don't think I've ever felt so helpless. He was coming off sedation when I visited him today and I had to try and calm him down but I had no idea what to say to him. I wish there was more I could do. I just want to be able to see his blue eyes and let him know I'm there.



That's one of my favourite pictures of us. He used to grow the most amazing moustaches.